‘Full circle’

Resting in the moments of life reflecting full circle moments…

Unintentionally rounding back to the waters that held a broken heart, now a healing bone. My shaken spirit held the ground as my family members departed this earthly realm, three months apart. I took reprieve in the cave of comfort and retreat. Working inward to relocate the pieces that broke a known reality. I felt it in my bones the end days were coming for them. Yet, regardless of some kind of knowing, the experience still revealed a multitude of layers that activated a simple remembering in my vessels.

‘Yes, we have all done this before.’  Witnessing our births and deaths. Again and again.  Reflecting on my earth bound relationships to my brother and father, which transmuted into the ethers, the moment their Spirits transcended. My identity, of my brothers sister, my fathers daughter died alongside them.

I circle back to find the pieces of myself no longer needing to be tending, holding space, care taking, worrying, being triggered by them.

Standing in so much space of Grace, it’s a wonder what is to unfold now even as the first full Winter now going into Spring passes without them.

What else wants to reveal itself for acknowledgment. Healing. Release. I am profoundly astonished by the beauty and love that is revealed from grief. An emotion that had not been fully acknowledged or learned to express or experience in my personal journey. My past self, mistook the brevity of its wisdom as depression. My present self is learning to converse with it without judgement or story.  I watch, listen, and learn as to what is being reborn through this death grief portal. Gently stepping towards the continued unknown. I am humbled. I am grateful.